As much as I want to grow up and experience things without my parents getting in the way, I’m actually scared to grow up.. I never realized how fast I was getting older and how much things are going to change really soon. Like soon, some of my cousins are graduating and the only times I’ll be seeing them is on holidays and it’ll be so empty at family parties .__. and then in a year.. I’ll almost be graduating and moving on. I’ll be done (or almost done, idk) with college stuff and I’ll just be waiting for the rest of the year to go by. I really don’t plan on staying in San Jose at all when I’m in college because my parents will be on me 24/7 so I plan on going south.. But I’ve never actually thought it through more thoroughly until now. Like for a fact I’ll miss my family, especially my sister. And of course my nephew Max too. I’ll be missing out on him going into kindergarten.. and even though I’ll still see them for holidays and stuff it’s not going to be the same because I see them SO much. I’m overthinking WAY too much..